30/30 NaPoWriMo Seven

you know, I never got to tell you

that when you let me fall in love with you
with no intention of opening your heart to me
yeah, that sucked
it was straight up selfish, yo
and userish
and so NOT cool --
quite the opposite of what you were going for
by trying to hook me with all your other fish
so you look like >da man<, so cool!

and if my worst fault is falling in love too soon too fast
so be it
at least i don't use a person's heart
as an egoistic play thing

(and well, that fault is now repaired, anyway)

... ... ... ... ...

you know, I never got to tell you

that when you said no to my love
straight up

i loved you even more
 but in a new way
withouth the yearning (eventually)

So, thank you.

... ... ... ... ...

you know, I never got to tell you

that our moments we spent
loving each other
in all the ways that we did
are what keeps me believing in love
now
even when it seems like it's not there
and even though our time is done.

So, thank you.